THE OPTION – CHAPTER ONE

SYNOPSIS:

“They say God cursed women to bleed every month because Eve had sinned, but that’s a lie, He cursed us to fall for the man that would never choose us and have us spend the rest of our lives blaming ourselves for being gullible enough to think we were worthy.”

Kerina Jordan is no stranger to life’s luxuries. She lives her life to the fullest, fulfilling a void left in her since she was twelve years old. Everyone believed she was shallow, extra, dramatic. She was okay with that.

She didn’t care about everyone’s opinions… until him.

Suddenly, she questions who she is. She tries to let go of the privilege she was given. She tries to become Adam Keller’s version of the perfect girl. All for it to blow up in her face.

Shoved into a world of betrayal, heartbreak, and addiction Kerina tries to navigate between who she is and who Adam wants her to be.

She wanted to be his choice, but she was just the option.

CHAPTER ONE:

The twelve-year old little girl sits under her blanket, huddled as if her life depends on it. As if staying underneath that blanket could protect her from the reality of what’s going on outside her bedroom door. Families were supposed to stay together like in the princess movies she watched. When two people love each other and get married, they are supposed to live happily-ever-after. So why were her mommy and daddy fighting? Why was her daddy packing his bag and leaving? She heard the older people in the family whispering when they thought she was asleep. Her daddy found a new family. He didn’t want mommy and her anymore. She was only twelve, what was she supposed to do without her daddy? She loved him very much.

She crawls out from under her blanket and tiptoes towards the door. She cracks it open so she can hear what’s going on outside.

“What about Kerina? You promised to take care of us!” mommy shouts. Mommy looks terrible, her hair is a mess and her clothes are hanging off her as if they are too big for her.

“You both will be fine,” her daddy says in a stern voice. “I have to leave.”

And he left. He didn’t even look at the little girl as he stormed out. In fact, he didn’t care about the little girl at all. He was there one minute and gone the next. Leaving their lives in turmoil.

Changing the little girl forever.

Four years later…

The sixteen-year-old teenager sits on the floor of her bedroom. Her mother is on some assignment, her father is disinterested as usual. The girls at school are still bullying her. A guy touched her inappropriately today. Another broke her heart the other day.

Her life was spiraling. She wasn’t okay. People didn’t like her. They wanted her to change. They wanted her to be exactly what a rich spoiled brat from a broken family was supposed to be. But she couldn’t be that person. She didn’t want to be.

She holds the blade between her fingers, she had already swallowed a bottle of her mother’s valium and it was starting to take effect. She held the blade to her wrist and pressed. The feel was euphoric. The glide of the metal splitting her skin and the warm blood spilling out.

Finally, she would no longer have to deal with this pain anymore. She could finally be free of all the scrutiny. She wouldn’t have to face each day knowing her father didn’t love her. She wouldn’t have to deal with anyone’s judgment. She was finally done.

She closed her eyes, one last time and sunk into oblivion.

GOODREADS TBR LINK: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/54799682-the-option

𝕀𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕄𝕖𝕝 ℍ𝕖𝕣𝕣𝕖𝕣𝕒 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝔻𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕣𝕠𝕦𝕤𝕝𝕪 𝕚𝕟 𝕃𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝔹𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤

Mel was one of the first reviewers to read The Third Wheel. She loved it and had even dubbed Kenna as her favorite. She always shares my teasers and is one of the first people who will get to read A Man Scorned. I know she’s gonna kill me for what’s about to happen, but let’s hope she forgives me….

So, let’s get to it:

1.                𝙒𝙝𝙤’𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙚𝙮𝙗𝙤𝙖𝙧𝙙? 𝙏𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙪𝙨 𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛. 

I’m 31 year old introvert artist and in my free time I blog about books a few things I like to do are:

-Take walks in the evening when it’s not to hot and there are less people in the streets so I can enjoy the scenery. 

-I enjoy spending quality time with my friends talking or playing board games. 

-I love to cook, try new recipes, salty or sweet I try everything. 

-Spend time in my bed with a good book and tea, wine or whiskey in hand and her cat by my side.

2.                𝙒𝙝𝙞𝙘𝙝 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨?

It’s started because of Ruthless People by J.J. Mcavoy left it a couple of years but picked it up around August 2019 with The Body Painter by Pepper Winters

3.                𝘿𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙏𝘽𝙍 (𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩 𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙚𝙬 𝙧𝙚𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙨)? 𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙚𝙨, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙚𝙭𝙘𝙞𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧?

Yes! They are to many but some of them are:

A Man Scorned by Yajna Ramnath

Melodic Madness by Natalie Bennett 

– In Silence She Screams by Amo Jones

Vicious Minds part 3 by J.J. Mcavoy 

Ruthless Empire by Rina Kent 

– Requiem by Jax Hart

and the list goes on and on and on, too many to write.

4.                𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 “𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙨” (𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙙, 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙘, 𝙟𝙪𝙣𝙠, 𝙣𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙚𝙣)?

A comfortable space, with no distractions.

Music it depends on my mood what I listed to I just go to Spotify and go for some of the playlist of my favorite books or sometimes I don’t have music on.

If I am eating something it’s going to be Flaming Hot Cheetos with a Dr.Pepper, snack type of things.

5.                𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠?

I usually don’t write those reviews, I have anxiety so giving bad review gives me hives, I just tell the author I don’t have a favorable review if I was given a ARC if not I just put a one star or no star review 

6.                𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝 𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧𝙨 𝙠𝙣𝙚𝙬/𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜?

For some of us is not that simple like for example for me the writing part doesn’t come that easy and I have to sometimes research words because my first language is not English so there is that.

7.                𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙖𝙡𝙡-𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠?

Ruthless People by JJ Mcavoy I can read it over and over and never get tired of it.

8.                𝙒𝙝𝙤 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙜𝙤 𝙩𝙤 𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙘𝙠 𝙞𝙣 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙛𝙪𝙣𝙠?

JJ Mcavoy or Tijan 

9.                𝙔𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚? 𝙒𝙝𝙮?

Dark romance as to why? plain and simple I LOVE DRAMA 

Let’s get to know you a little more:

1.                𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙩𝙤𝙥 3 𝙈𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙚𝙨 (𝙖𝙙𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨 𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧)?

1.- Gone With The Wind

2.- Flipped

3.-The Little Mermaid 

2.                𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙩𝙤𝙥 3 𝙏𝙑 𝙎𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙨 (𝙖𝙙𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨 𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧)?

1.- Friends

2.- Parks and recreation 

3.- Elite

3.                𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙙 10 𝙨𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙬𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙪𝙥 𝙞𝙣 𝙛𝙡𝙖𝙢𝙚𝙨, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪’𝙙 𝙜𝙧𝙖𝙗?

My backpack because I have everything there to survive like my wallet, my phone, my kindle, my makeup, candy, toothbrush… I don’t use purses I use backpacks

4.                𝙉𝙖𝙢𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙞𝙩𝙚𝙢 𝙤𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙚𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩?

Travel to Europe

5.                𝙁𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪’𝙧𝙚 𝙟𝙖𝙢𝙢𝙞𝙣’ 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬.

You should see me in a crown by Billie Eilish and Good Thing by Zedd and Kehlani

6.                𝘼 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙚𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙡𝙮 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙗𝙚 𝙖 𝙢𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙚/𝙩𝙫 𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙖𝙞𝙣 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙨?

The Midnight Mayhem series by Amo Jones but I honestly don’t have a clue on what actors because I don’t see anyone that special that could play these wonderful characters 

7.                𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙜𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙖𝙣 𝙖𝙨𝙥𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙙𝙫𝙞𝙘𝙚, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙞𝙩 𝙗𝙚?

 I don’t consider myself that good of a blogger but maybe that there is always room for improvement  and write about what you love

Final task:

𝙍𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙚𝙬 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙬𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙮 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨.

Pretty good reviews but maybe explain more about the book maybe give more details not spoiling just better description.

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𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕟𝕠𝕥 𝕒𝕝𝕠𝕟𝕖.

You are standing alone in a field. Your mind is throwing everything at you. Your fears. Your insecurities. You miss your family. You miss your friends. You wish you could go outside or maybe for a drive. Your kids are irritating you. Your boss may not pay you. The restrictions of quarantine are more than what you expected it to be. Everyday the numbers rise, the death tolls rise, and the severity of what is happening plays on your mind. You think no one understands. You think you are alone.

Now close your eyes, and picture this:

A toddler is in his room all alone. He is quiet because he just got scolded at by his parents all because what he wanted… was their attention. They are never home, but suddenly they are there every day. He does not understand that they are worried about their future or their bills. Those words do not mean anything to him. All he wants is someone to play with.

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A fourteen-year-old girl with headphones in her ears. She is trying to block out the sounds of her parents fighting. This time her father does not have alcohol to make him sleep a little earlier. Her mother is unprotected because the police are on the streets. She is worried that when he gets bored, he will come through her door next.

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A matriculant is texting his girlfriend, he tells her he misses and cannot wait to see her. He then texts each one of his friends. He spends hours talking to them. His mother screams at him every day to get off his phone, to do something other than nothing. He does not know how to explain that his friends are the only ones who understand what he is going through. He is worried about his examinations. He has no idea what the effect of school being closed for so long would have on his future.

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A student is pacing in her dorm room. She is miles away from her family trying to build her future. Her examinations were supposed to be held, but now things are changing. The administration says they will get back to her, but time is running out. She does not know how to prepare. She does not know what happens when the restrictions are lifted. She does not know what happens to her student loans if she is asked to extend her semester.

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An intern is sitting at his computer, scrolling through possible job vacancies. He is worried about how this will affect his fieldwork. Would the company he is interning for keep him? Or would they ask him to leave and he must start all over again? He shakes his head with tears in his eyes because suddenly the future does not look so bright anymore.

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An administrative assistant is biting her nails. She is terrified that she is going to lose her job. She does not know whether she will be paid for this month. Her bank account is empty and her bills are due. The rate of unemployment is high, and she knows she will not stand a chance. She is worried that the bank may attach her belongings. Her name may be blacklisted. Her cell phone service will be cut. Suddenly, she has no hope for the next day.

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A man that suffers from depression is lying in bed with the curtains drawn. He does not see the point in getting out and facing another day alone. He cannot see his friends. He cannot see his family. Phone calls and video calls while soothing, are not the same as being with them. Even though he was alone in life, he could walk amongst a crowd and feel a little less lonely. But now, now he has no idea what the point of life is anymore. Its been thirty-odd days, he cannot do it anymore.

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A businessman is tossing back drink after drink and smoking cigarette after cigarette as he studies his financials. There was no revenue this month. There were no new clients. He has got staff that is looking to him to pay their salaries. He has got a family that is looking to him to pay their bills and feed them. He wonders what is going to happen to everything he worked so hard for.

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There is a woman out there whose mother just passed away from the deadly virus. She is in another state and cannot travel to bury her. She is alone in her grief. She cannot make sure that her mother is dressed in her favourite garment. She cannot ensure that religious practices are followed. She does not have any hope of her mother’s soul finding peace. Mostly, she regrets she could not see her one last time.  

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There is a seventy-year-old man staring out the window with worry etched on his face. He needs groceries. He needs his pension money. He has no one to come look after him should he fall ill. After all, he is the one the virus will come for first. His family has abandoned him, and the laws forbid him. Only one thought flits through his mind, whether he eats or whether he goes out… the outcome will still be the same.

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There are a doctor and a nurse watching each other from over the hospital bed of a victim. Their masks and gloves protect them. But it does not hide the fact that their chests rise a little faster with worry, their eyes burn with unshed tears of yet another life lost, and their hands? Their hands shake with the weight of the expectations of the victim’s loved ones.

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There is a homeless man sitting on the street. The ratty excuse for a blanket does nothing to protect him from the cold nights. There are no shelters and some of them turn him away. He does not understand what people are saying. He does not know what the terms social distancing and hygiene are. He does not know anything besides the fact that he goes to sleep at the corner of the street with only his stomach to complain to him.

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There is a police officer taken away from his family and put onto the streets to ensure that people follow the law. After all, that was the oath he took. Yet he cannot help but worry whether he would accidentally carry the virus home to his family. His country needs him, and he… needs his family.

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There is a scientist working day and night trying to find a cure. She looks at her data and she tried her concoctions, but nothing is working. She cannot take it anymore. The pressure is rising. Her shift is over, and she can go home. She looks at the television and sees the devastation, she turns around in her chair and gets back to work.

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There is a president. He is sitting in on meetings. He is conversing with hundreds of people telling him what he should and should not do. He is worried about his country. One wrong move and the country is dropped into poverty. One wrong move and the country’s population decreases by a fast attacking virus. He cannot address his nation without stumbling across the ball of emotion and fear in his throat.

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So, did you picture them?

Did you see their struggles?

Did you pick up on how many of them are going through what you are going through?

Now go back to your field, and slowly open your eyes…

𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙚.

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𝕀𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕋𝕒𝕟𝕦𝕤𝕙𝕣𝕖𝕖 ℙ𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕚𝕥 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝔻𝕚𝕒𝕣𝕪 𝕠𝕗 𝕒 𝕐𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕘 𝔹𝕠𝕠𝕜 ℝ𝕖𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨𝕖𝕣

Let’s welcome the gorgeous Tanushree from Diary of a Young Book Reviewer. We met on Instagram. Her page is beautiful, and I found myself reading lots of her recommendations. She’s sweet and engaging. Even to strangers halfway across the world! so, let’s get to know her…

1.        𝙒𝙝𝙤’𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙚𝙮𝙗𝙤𝙖𝙧𝙙? 𝙏𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙪𝙨 𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛.

            Gah, behind the keyboard is a slightly awkward extrovert who also happens to be a romance book lover. I have been reading books for so long until last year I decided to make myself useful rather than being a couch potato and review the books that I love and help the authors in a way. 

2.        𝙒𝙝𝙞𝙘𝙝 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨?

            There isn’t a particular book that made me realise that I wanted to blog about books but it was the books(that I read) in general that made me open my own blog. It seemed fun and it was kind of productive. I also made friends with lots of new bookstagrammers, authors and book bloggers from different parts of the world and I think that alone made this journey worthwhile. I found an incredible community of wonderful women and I kind of loved helping them out and spreading news about good books with cute covers, interesting plots etc.

3.        𝘿𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙏𝘽𝙍 (𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩 𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙚𝙬 𝙧𝙚𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙨)? 𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙚𝙨, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙚𝙭𝙘𝙞𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧?

            There’s no end to that list lol. Some books have been announced and some are still a long way from their release date but most of them are actually available and I haven’t got around reading them yet. But I am definitely looking forward to the  ‘Boston Belles’ series by L.J. Shen. Also ‘Wild at Heart’ by K.A.Tucker is sitting on my TBR for quite some time now and I am hoping to get started on that book.

4.        𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 “𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙨” (𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙙, 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙘, 𝙟𝙪𝙣𝙠, 𝙣𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙚𝙣)?

            Food? Yes. Music? A must. Naked men? Sure lol.

5.        𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠?

            Hardest thing? I don’t think that I had to say anything hard about a book(at least not yet). I write about what I honestly felt about the book and leave it to that.

6.        𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙖𝙡𝙡-𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠?

            Hard to choose but I would say its a ‘Mr. Perfect’ by Linda Howard ( love ‘Call Me Irresistible’ by Susan Elizabeth Phillips too). But anything Sandra Brown or Anne Stuart works fine for me. But seriously I have a big list of favourites and Susan Elizabeth Phillips is my all time favourite but recently I am bit partial about Jewel E Ann. But there are so many authors and amazing books that it’s hard to choose a single favourite. This is a tough question and I have no definite answer lol.

7.        𝙒𝙝𝙤 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙜𝙤 𝙩𝙤 𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙘𝙠 𝙞𝙣 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙛𝙪𝙣𝙠?

            Sandra Brown. I start reading my favourite books again  or choose random books to read.  Recently I have started binge reading old Jewel e Ann books.

9.        𝙔𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚? 𝙒𝙝𝙮?

            Romantic Suspense. I like the mystery and love to solve it too. The romance is an added bonus.

Let’s get to know you a little more:

1.        𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙩𝙤𝙥 3 𝙈𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙚𝙨 (𝙖𝙙𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨 𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧)?

            Omg! That’s a tough question lol. There are so many but ‘Titanic’, Me Before You’ and ‘Pretty Woman’ are some of my favourites.

2.        𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙩𝙤𝙥 3 𝙏𝙑 𝙎𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙨 (𝙖𝙙𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨 𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧)?

            Friends is an all time favourite. Love The Crown and Downton Abbey too. There is a lot more in the list lol.

3.        𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙙 10 𝙨𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙬𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙪𝙥 𝙞𝙣 𝙛𝙡𝙖𝙢𝙚𝙨, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪’𝙙 𝙜𝙧𝙖𝙗?

            The obvious and truthful answer is my cell phone . I can’t live without it lol. But I would like to make sure that my family is alright too.

4.        𝙉𝙖𝙢𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙞𝙩𝙚𝙢 𝙤𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙗𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙚𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩?

            Travel foreign countries. Like a solo trip or something. Learn new cultures, definitely. Try to learn a new language(s).

5.        𝙁𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪’𝙧𝙚 𝙟𝙖𝙢𝙢𝙞𝙣’ 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬.

            I am currently loving ‘boyfriend’ by Salena Gomez.

6.        𝘼 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙚𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙡𝙮 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙗𝙚 𝙖 𝙢𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙚/𝙩𝙫 𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙖𝙞𝙣 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙨?

             The Discovery Of Witches has already been adapted into a TV series and the cast is spot on too.

7.        𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙜𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙖𝙣 𝙖𝙨𝙥𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙙𝙫𝙞𝙘𝙚, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙞𝙩 𝙗𝙚?

            I am a new blogger myself and I am trying to learn about it as I go but I would definitely suggest blogging about something that you are truly passionate about and posting something interesting related to that subject everyday( or as much as you can). Try to organise an author interview or a giveaway or stuff like that really helps. Also try to create a NetGalley or Edelweiss account. Also you can request books from authors or publishers. Reviewing ARC’s definitely helps your following but don’t request too many books at once. That can be stressful.

Final task:

𝙍𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙚𝙬 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙬𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙮 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨.

Down to earth(told by others). Funny, witty and the most unromantic person ever. An interesting blend of introvert and extrovert who loves to read and review romance books. I would give myself a 4 star rating cause nobody’s perfect lol.

𝔽𝕚𝕟𝕕 𝕋𝕒𝕟𝕦𝕤𝕙𝕣𝕖𝕖 𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕤𝕖 𝕊𝕠𝕔𝕚𝕒𝕝 𝕄𝕖𝕕𝕚𝕒 𝕃𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕤:

Email:booklover9886@yahoo.com

Website : https://thediaryofayoungbookreviewer.wordpress.com/

Instagram: https://instagram.com/bookreviewer_98

Twitter: https://mobile.twitter.com/98Bookreviewer

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/73958478-tithi

𝕀𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕊 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕞 @𝕓𝕦𝕥𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜

  1. Who’s behind the keyboard? Tell us a little about yourself.

-Hello, My name is Stephanie or better known as S. I am 27 years old. I have been a bookstagrammer on IG @butthisbook since September 1, 2014 and I’ve been a book blogger since March of 2015. Reading has been a huge part of my life, since 2012. The one series that got me hooked on reading was none other than Fifty Shades of Grey. I was never a bibliophile while growing up and I honestly never would have thought I would ever become one. That is, until my curious little heart kept seeing this series all over the place. I decided to stop by target one day and buy the first book in the series. And well, the rest is history. I’m now a proud Bibliophile and can’t picture my life any other way.

  • Which book made you decide that you wanted to blog about books?

Sooo, in this case, there wasn’t a book that made me decide to start blogging rather than two girls that I friended in this community. Courtney and Kristen are no longer book bloggers, but they’re the reason I began blogging in the first place. They both invited me to be a part of 3 Fictional Hearts Book Blog. It’s because of them where I made such wonderful friends in this community. I do remember the very first book I blogged about though, and that book was Unravel by Calia Read.

  • Do you have a personal TBR (list apart from review requests)? If yes, what book are you most excited to read this year?

I do have a personal TBR list. AS of right now, my most anticipated reads for the rest of 2018 are.

  • What If It’s Us by Becky Albertalli and Adam Silvera
  • Kingdom of Ash (Throne of Glass Series) final book by Sarah J. Maas
  • Tangled Like Us by Krista and Becca Ritchie
  • When blogging, what are your “must haves” (food, music, junk, naked men)?

-Snack (chips or candy), and Music or Netflix playing in the background.

  • What is the hardest thing you had to say about a book?

I think the hardest thing I had to say about a book was when I was trying to express my deepest love and respect for a certain story. Atheists Who Kneel and Pray by Tarryn Fisher was a hard one to review only because I shared something deeply personal about myself.

  • What is the one thing you wish authors knew/understood about blogging?

– Hmm I think it would be that blogging takes a lot of time and effort. Time that some people may not have but they try regardless to find the time to blog. Also, please don’t ignore the little blogs out there. I see a lot of smaller blogs get pushed aside because they don’t have a huge following. Smaller blogs/bookstagrammers work just as hard and are as devoted as bigger bloggers. 🙂

  • What is your all-time favorite book?

OMG!!!!! This is the hardest question everrrrrr!!!! I won’t be able to pick just one, but I’ll narrow it down to 3 of my all-time favorite books.

  • The Opportunist by Tarryn Fisher
  • The Man I love by Suanne Laqueur
  • Dusty Innocents/Delinquents by Mary Elizabeth
  • Who is your go to author when you are stuck in a book funk?

-HMMM… Ruby Dixon!!! Her books always get me out of book funks.

  • Your favorite genre? Why?

Romance. I’m a hopeless romantic!!!

Let’s get to know you a little more:

  • What are your top 3 Movies (adaptations of books or other)?
  • My Best Friend’s Wedding
  • Mona Lisa Smile
  • Interstellar
  • What are your top 3 TV Series (adaptations of books or other)?
  • Shameless
  • The Office
  • Greys Anatomy
  • If you had 10 seconds before your house went up in flames, what is the first thing you’d grab?
  • Gahhhhhh!!!!! My phone most likely.
  • Name one item on your bucket list?
  • Sky Diving
  • Favorite song that you’re jammin’ to right now.
  • Sangria Wine’ by Pharrell Williams & Camila Cabello
  • A book you secretly wish can be a movie/tv series and who would play the main leads?
  • Mud Vein by Tarryn Fisher
  • If you had to give an aspiring blogger advice, what would it be?
  • It’s not all about how many likes you get on posts and it’s okay to say no to ARC requests. It’s no fun when you’re drowning in a pile of arcs and not be able to read what you want to read when you want to read it.

Let’s get to know you a little more:

  1. What are your top 3 Movies (adaptations of books or other)?

My Best Friend’s Wedding

Mona Lisa Smile

Interstellar

  • What are your top 3 TV Series (adaptations of books or other)?

Shameless

The Office

Greys Anatomy

  • If you had 10 seconds before your house went up in flames, what is the first thing you’d grab?

Gahhhhhh!!!!! My phone most likely.

  • Name one item on your bucket list?

Sky Diving

  • Favorite song that you’re jammin’ to right now.

‘Sangria Wine’ by Pharrell Williams & Camila Cabello

  • A book you secretly wish can be a movie/tv series and who would play the main leads?

Mud Vein by Tarryn Fisher

  • If you had to give an aspiring blogger advice, what would it be?

It’s not all about how many likes you get on posts and it’s okay to say no to ARC requests. It’s no fun when you’re drowning in a pile of arcs and not be able to read what you want to read when you want to read it.

Final task:

Review yourself in twenty words.

  • Hmmm… gahhhhhh!!!! Idk. LOL

ℂ𝕙𝕖𝕔𝕜 𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕊 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕓𝕝𝕠𝕘𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤 𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕤𝕖 𝕊𝕠𝕔𝕚𝕒𝕝 𝕄𝕖𝕕𝕚𝕒 𝕃𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕤

Email – butthisbook@yahoo.com

Instagram – https://www.instagram.com/butthisbook/

Goodreads –  https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/21914278-butthisbook

Website – https://fictionalheart.wordpress.com/

𝕀𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝔹𝕣𝕚𝕥 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕞 ℝ𝕖𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨𝕤 𝕓𝕪 𝔹𝕖𝕖

𝙒𝙝𝙤’𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙚𝙮𝙗𝙤𝙖𝙧𝙙? 𝙏𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙪𝙨 𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛.

I’m Brit (Gosik) Lane. I’m twenty five and I’m a proud aunt of 3 little boys. who have just stolen my heart since they were born. I’m a country girl from Northwestern Ohio. I bleed scarlet red and grey. When I’m not blogging or talking about books I work about 45 hours – 6 days a week or writing stories. and will be publishing my first novel soon. So I’m very excited for that

𝙒𝙝𝙞𝙘𝙝 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨?

Fifty Shades of Grey by EL James. I know this is a book that everyone says but to me it is the book that got me into reading, it got me out of a bad funk after an abusive relationship. All I wanted to do was crawl in a hole but than I saw all three books on the Walmart shelf one day in June 2012 and decided to pick them up. And I read all three books in two days.

𝘿𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙏𝘽𝙍 (𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩 𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙚𝙬 𝙧𝙚𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙨)? 𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙚𝙨, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙚𝙭𝙘𝙞𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧?

 Yes, I do. its ever growing. and at one point I decided to look up how long it would take me to read all 6,567 books on my TBR. and the site told me it would take me 95 years.. yes.. you read that right 95 years. so i would die before finishing it (lol). and i’m very excited to read Blood Match by K.A Linde, she got me hooked on vampires.

𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙖𝙡𝙡-𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠?

This answer is easy for me and it’s Unravel by Calia Read her Surviving Trace novel comes a close second. but Calia Read writes novels that just consume your soul.

𝙒𝙝𝙤 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙜𝙤 𝙩𝙤 𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙘𝙠 𝙞𝙣 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙛𝙪𝙣𝙠?

This is yet another easy one for me and it’s Natalie Bennett. She is my dark soul twin (lol).

𝙔𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚? 𝙒𝙝𝙮?

my favorite is DARK ROMANCE <3. I do have to admit I do have a dark soul deep down. I’ve always been obsessed with serial killers and always been drawn to blood and weird stuff. So it just makes sense I love Dark Romance. I’ve read a lot of dark romance in my time since started reading them that they are no longer ‘dark enough’ so I wrote my own called Devil’s Play.

𝕃𝕖𝕥’𝕤 𝕘𝕖𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒 𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖 𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖:

  • What are your top 3 Movies (adaptations of books or other)?

Gone with the Wind, China Seas, The Wizard of Oz. I am obsessed with movies from the 1930s. I’m a big fan of Clark Gable and Jean Harlow.

  • What are your top 3 TV Series (adaptations of books or other)?

Supernatural, Lucifer and The Handmaid’s tale. But I do love my tv. I find it odd that I love Paranormal television more than reading about it (lol)

  • Name one item on your bucket list?

I have 102 things on my bucket list. this is maybe the hardest question. But I would love to just randomly take a road trip around the United States. Or move to Memphis Tennessee That’s been on my bucket list the longest.

  • Favorite song that you’re jammin’ to right now.

Well I am a country girl so I would say “Bury Me In Dixie by Riley Green’ I find him and his voice so attractive.

  • A book you secretly wish can be a movie/tv series and who would play the main leads?

The Edge of Never by J.A. Redmerski and I would choose Brant Daugherty and Sabrina Carpenter

Final task:

Review yourself in twenty words.

 A Ohioan country girl who is a night owl with an old soul who loves to day dream 

ℂ𝕙𝕖𝕔𝕜 𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝔹𝕣𝕚𝕥’𝕤 ℝ𝕖𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨𝕤 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝔹𝕝𝕠𝕘𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤 𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕗𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕠𝕨𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕊𝕠𝕔𝕚𝕒𝕝 𝕄𝕖𝕕𝕚𝕒 𝕃𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕤:

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𝕀𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝔼𝕝𝕝𝕒 𝔹𝕚𝕒𝕟𝕔𝕙𝕚 𝕠𝕗 𝔹𝕚𝕒𝕟𝕔𝕙𝕚 𝔹𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤

𝙒𝙝𝙤’𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙚𝙮𝙗𝙤𝙖𝙧𝙙? 𝙏𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙪𝙨 𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛.

My name is Ella Bianchi and I currently reside in the great state of Illinois. I live with my parents, older brother, Guinea Pig Hazel, and Betta Fish Skylar (Skylar honestly might not be the original name I gave him, but if it wasn’t, Skylar is his name now, only because I forgot was his original name was and because I said so). Aside from reading and blogging, of course, I love to write and I also love theatre, as well. Music and weather are two huge things that interest me.

𝙒𝙝𝙞𝙘𝙝 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨?

Adultolescence by Gabbie Hanna

𝘿𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙏𝘽𝙍 (𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩 𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙚𝙬 𝙧𝙚𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙨)? 𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙚𝙨, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙚𝙭𝙘𝙞𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧?

One I am very excited to read is If They Come For Us by Fatimah Asghar, which I actually won a print copy of in a Goodreads Giveaway, so I’ll be able to read it before the release date.

𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 “𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙨” (𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙙, 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙘, 𝙟𝙪𝙣𝙠, 𝙣𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙚𝙣)?

My must haves when I’m blogging are music, because I literally can’t do anything without music in the background or me humming, or singing, a song, along with a bag of chips, because I have a probably unhealthy obsession with Ruffles Cheddar and Sour Cream potato chips.

𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠?

I don’t have an answer for this one. Since every review I write is 100% honest, I’m not scared to write anything. Not every book is for everyone, my friends.

𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝 𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧𝙨 𝙠𝙣𝙚𝙬/𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜?

Being a blogger is a difficult thing to do as it is hard to maintain a blog. That being said, I don’t like when authors go around asking bloggers to promote their works. I know that they have to do it, but I like it better when an author puts out an offer for promotion and bloggers ask to be apart of it.

𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙖𝙡𝙡-𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠?

As weird as this is, I seriously love the book Gray by Pete Wentz. And yes, that is the same Pete Wentz that is the lead singer of the band Fall Out Boy.  

𝙒𝙝𝙤 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙜𝙤 𝙩𝙤 𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙘𝙠 𝙞𝙣 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙛𝙪𝙣𝙠?

Ellen Hopkins. Even though I give her books relatively low ratings, I seriously love her books.

𝙔𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚? 𝙒𝙝𝙮?

My favorite genre is anything that has to do with topics such as mental health, suicide, etc. as it is something that interests me and that I have always found fascinating to read about.

𝕃𝕖𝕥’𝕤 𝕘𝕖𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒 𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖 𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖:

What are your top 3 Movies (adaptations of books or other)?

The High School Musical Trilogy (count that as one, even though it’s technically three), A Christmas Story, and The Cat in the Hat. God, my choices could not have gotten more random than that.

  • What are your top 3 TV Series (adaptations of books or other)?

iCarly, Boy Meets World, and Hannah Montana.

  • If you had 10 seconds before your house went up in flames, what is the first thing you’d grab?

The photo I have of meet and greet picture with Sabrina Carpenter at Show of the Summer last year since that day made me the happiest person.

  • Name one item on your bucket list?

To go to Hawaii.

  • Favorite song that you’re jammin’ to right now.

Say Amen (Saturday Night) by Panic! At The Disco. They’re one of my favorite bands and Say Amen (Saturday Night) is one of my favorite songs by them, hands down.

  • A book you secretly wish can be a movie/tv series and who would play the main leads?

I seriously have NO answer for this one whatsoever. I have NO idea what books would be a good movie or tv adaptation and I have NO idea who would play the main roles since I watch virtually NO tv shows or movies.

  • If you had to give an aspiring blogger advice, what would it be?

Promote your blog on your Goodreads, Twitter, etc., sign up to be a host for a blog tour, do giveaways, anything to get your blog out there!

Final task:

Review yourself in twenty words.

I’m not the best, but I like to think I am kind and a hard-worker, not to mention funny.

ℂ𝕙𝕖𝕔𝕜 𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝔼𝕝𝕝𝕒’𝕤 ℝ𝕖𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨𝕤 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝔹𝕝𝕠𝕘𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤 𝕓𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕤 𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕗𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕠𝕨𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕊𝕠𝕔𝕚𝕒𝕝 𝕄𝕖𝕕𝕚𝕒 𝕃𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕤:

Website: https://bianchibooksreviews.weebly.com/

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/70647601-chrissy

𝕀𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕧𝕚𝕖𝕨 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝔼𝕣𝕚𝕜𝕒 ℙ𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕝𝕖 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝔹𝕠𝕠𝕜 ℍ𝕒𝕧𝕖𝕟 𝔹𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝔹𝕝𝕠𝕘

I met Erika when I approached her to review my book, The Wreck of our Hearts. Learn more about Erika, and be sure to follow her on the Social Media Links provided after the interview.

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𝙒𝙝𝙤’𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙚𝙮𝙗𝙤𝙖𝙧𝙙? 𝙏𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙪𝙨 𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛.

My name is Erika (Budd) Panfile. I’m a wife of 15 years with two littles: girl is 11 and boy is 5. I have a blue tick coonhound to round out the circus. I work full time as a Benefits Analyst and began blogging about 2 years ago after reviewing as a reader for about 6 months prior to that. I also have my little reviewing Army behind me that keep me sane and support our blog so much. Nicole, Christina, Carolyn, Belinda, and Stina are rockstars!!

𝙒𝙝𝙞𝙘𝙝 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨?

Actually, the blog was started by the owner, Amanda, and I was reviewing for her at the time when she asked if I wanted to run it for her, the rest is history. She has been amazing at letting me do whatever I want, even if I have no clue what I’m doing. Although, one of my very first reviews was for Jordan Marie’s Devil’s Blaze MC Series, and I’m still telling people they need to read that one.

𝘿𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙏𝘽𝙍 (𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩 𝙖𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙚𝙬 𝙧𝙚𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙨)? 𝙄𝙛 𝙮𝙚𝙨, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙚𝙭𝙘𝙞𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧?

Of course!! I try to read a mix of PR sign ups, direct review requests, ARC’s from my Authors, and a few that I one-click throughout the month. Of course there’s always the “Here read this” pile from my amazing Blogger and Reader friends. I don’t remember off hand when it comes out, but I’m salivating for when Flip Trick by Amo Jones comes out!!

𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 “𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙨” (𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙙, 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙘, 𝙟𝙪𝙣𝙠, 𝙣𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙚𝙣)?

I blog in spurts, so in the morning there needs to be coffee so I can see straight, and it really depends on the day. There’s something different happening on the blog each day. Having two kids and a full time job, it’s hard to find balance and original content, but I try to share what I want to read and have already read and loved, along with what my reviewers are reading as well.

𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠?

I always find it difficult to review a new Author (either brand spanking new or new to me) because I don’t want them to be discouraged if the story didn’t blow me away. It rarely happens that I don’t like something, but when it does, I try to be as helpful and kind as I can be.

𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝 𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧𝙨 𝙠𝙣𝙚𝙬/𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜?

I guess the biggest thing for me is the time and the energy that goes into running a blog our size, a group, reviewing, and just keeping up. Maybe not necessarily the Authors, but random share requests being sent from all directions can sometimes feel overwhelming to us. I’m a big fan of encouraging emailed review requests, putting share requests in our daily pimp posts, requesting takeovers in the group via email, anything that makes it easier. It’s just me that’s answering them, so it can be a bit much.

𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙖𝙡𝙡-𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠?

That has to be the hardest question on the planet, but we’ll go with my favorite since 5th grade. I have read Stephen King’s IT pretty much every summer since I was 11 and never get tired of it.

𝙒𝙝𝙤 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙜𝙤 𝙩𝙤 𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙘𝙠 𝙞𝙣 𝙖 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙛𝙪𝙣𝙠?

I have a few, actually too many Authors that maybe I spread myself thin at times. Honestly? The amount of talent in the indie world is astounding, just saying. You can never go wrong with L.J. Shen, Amo Jones, Jordan Marie, Ashley Jade, and I could rattle you off a ton of amazing Authors that I’ve enjoyed since I’ve started. I love when people talk books with me!!

𝙔𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙖𝙫𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙚? 𝙒𝙝𝙮?

I’m a sucker for Mafia Romance, it has always been one of my favorites, but I’m convinced I will pretty much read most genres. There’s just something about Mafia… a bad-boy with power brought to his knees for the woman he loves that gets me….

𝕃𝕖𝕥’𝕤 𝕘𝕖𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒 𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖 𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕖:

  • What are your top 3 Movies (adaptations of books or other)?
  • The Breakfast Club
  • Halloween-Rob Zombie Version
  • Friday
  • What are your top 3 TV Series (adaptations of books or other)?
  • Riverdale
  • 13 Reasons Why
  • Blue Bloods
  • If you had 10 seconds before your house went up in flames, what is the first thing you’d grab?

After my family, I would grab my Mom’s jewelry box with all her jewelry to be handed down to my daughter. Now that she’s gone, it’s become so important to have that to pass along.

  • Name one item on your bucket list?

A kid-less vacation to a tropical place with the hubs…so ready for that.

  • Favorite song that you’re jammin’ to right now.

I have “My Everything” by Kane Brown as my ringtone right now

  • A book you secretly wish can be a movie/tv series and who would play the main leads?

I just read Melissa Toppen’s Tequila Duet and told her in no uncertain terms that it needed to become a movie STAT. The 1st book just released and the second comes out in the next few weeks and it was phenomenal!! The main leads, if it was a movie, would be Theo James as Hudson and Olivia Holt as Lennon. It needs to happen, lol. A must read duet by the way. (HINT)

  • If you had to give an aspiring blogger advice, what would it be?

Be kind, but don’t be afraid to say no. Watch out for burn out. Keep it fun, and do what you can. Let your love for books shine through.

Final task:

Review yourself in twenty words.

Overly tired hot-mess Mom who wants to read every book on the planet in her pajamas while drinking coffee.

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A MAN SCORNED – CHAPTER ONE

The groom tried to dip the bride, they held the pose for exactly ten seconds in which I managed to get two shots, before they tripped and fell to the sand in a fit of laughter. I rolled my eyes and continued snapping images as they continued to do their own thing. It made for genuine photographs for their album, after all, that was what I was hired to do.

Mackenna fucking Kane became a photographer for hire. I pushed my long dark hair behind my ears as I bent low and tried to get an image of the couple under the blaze of the sun. The wedding was something out of a bad romance movie complete with flower archways and draped chairs.

I never understood why people chose beaches for weddings. All that sand in the eyes, food and of course, the saltwater in the hair. It seemed to escape me completely. Couples in love. They sickened me. Sure, at one stage I was in love too. In fact, I’m supposed to still be in love.

I glanced at Elisa as she ran along the water and splashed around with the children that attended the wedding. Hennessey had some church service today and I was on Elisa duty. I decided that taking her with me to the wedding would keep her occupied enough.

Things between Hennessey and me changed a lot over the last couple of years. As Elisa got older, I found that Hennessey was more invested in the child than she was in whatever we were supposed to be. The worst part was that our past seemed to come up a lot. Even though I had given everything up for her two years ago.

I sat at my computer and watched as Elias had his head bowed. There was something in his hand. I couldn’t zoom in, but it seemed like a photograph. He spent ninety percent of his time staring at it. He never engaged with the nurses that came in to hand him food or medication. He never screamed that he needed to be let out. He never moved unless it was from the bed to the bathroom or the common room.

His dark hair stood up on all ends and was much longer now that he did not bother to keep it neat. His beard looked as if he hadn’t seen civilization for years, which technically, he didn’t. the nursing staff tried to neaten him up, but where afraid to be anywhere near him with anything sharp.

“What the hell are you doing?” Hennessey snapped from behind me.

I sighed and turned around. “I was just checking in.”

“The fuck, Mackenna?” she seethed. Her green eyes were angry, and her plump lips were pulled back over her teeth. She was mad.

“What is your problem?” I shouted.

“He is!” she pointed at the screen which only showed me Elias’s back. “You have held a torch for him since the moment the two of you met!”

“Are you kidding me right now?” I seethed. “He is in a freaking nut house, what more do you want?”

“Get rid of him!” she shrieked. It was earsplitting and painfilled.

“He’s not even part of our lives, Hennessey, why are you over-fucking-reacting?”

“Because he is!” she whispered. Her eyes filled with tears and the lips that were twisted in a snarl now trembled. “Because late at night, I know you see him in your dreams. Because you spend hours in this fucking den just watching him. Because if I was not around, you’d be with him.”

I breathed in deeply and closed my eyes against her onslaught. “I am in love with you. I chose you. The person I’m having a happily-ever-after with is you.”

“So, get rid of him.”

Her pain and fear was etched in her every pore. She wanted Elias out of my life in every possible way. I walked towards her and placed a chaste kiss on her lips, before grabbing Elisa’s mini baseball bat from the corner of the room.

I looked at my computers, my programmers and my cellphones… I closed my eyes and swung until every single device was shattered into tiny pieces. I expelled Elias from my life as well as everything and everyone from New York.

Hennessey wanted someone that was one hundred percent hers, this was as far as I could go.

I blinked away the memory of that day and sighed. The couple came over to thank me and after a few pleasantries, I packed away my stuff and beckoned Elisa over. Her dark hair curled into a frizzy mess and her big blue eyes were wide with happiness. She inherited her father’s dark hair and her mother’s blue eyes. It was because of those two features that people believed she was actually my daughter. Her brows, her lips and her mannerisms were all like her father. It was the reason I hadn’t strangled her in her sleep as I wanted to many times over the last three years.

She was a reserved kid that only spoke when she was spoken to. For a three-year-old, she understood and spoked clearly. That was probably my fault considering every time she started babbling like a baby, I glared at her until she spoke articulately. Elisa was terrified of me, something Hennessey reprimanded me for on numerous occasions. Of course, I reminded her that the only reason I tolerated the child was because of her.

“Time to go,” I said.

She nodded slowly and straightened her t-shirt and shorts from their disarray. I turned on my heel and waited till she walked in front of me. I would not touch the child, but I wouldn’t have her trialing behind me for anyone to just snatch her. I didn’t want a vengeful Hennessey on my hands. That didn’t work out well for anyone involved.

The walk to the villa was a short one. In fact, everything was within walking distance from us, and if we needed anything we usually took a boat to neighboring islands. The heat was ridiculous and my head ached with a need for something strong and ice-cold to go down my throat.

The door was wide opened when we got there. I chalked it up to Hennessey feeling hot. When I got inside, the scene before me told me a different story. Elisa stepped backwards, and for the first time she stood behind me. I was too stunned to remove her hands that clutched the material of my clothes.

The villa was trashed. Vases lay shattered with water and drenched flowers on the floor. Photo frames that Hennessey hung around the place were all shattered with the photographs ripped apart. The glass coffee table was broken and drops of blood made my body suddenly cold.

“Hennessey?” I called knowing it was futile.

She was gone. No. She was taken.

I knew this because only one vase remained intact and it stood in the middle of the dinning table filled with white roses tipped with what I was sure was Hennessey’s blood. On the vase, an envelope was taped to it.

I stepped forward with Elisa trailing behind me. Her hands shook. She was scared. I couldn’t comfort her. Not when my body vibrated with rage. I plucked the envelope from its resting place. Inside were two tickets to New York and a note.

Let’s play a game, my love. Heads, I’m yours. Tails, you’re mine.

It didn’t take a genius to figure out who this was. I slid out my phone from my back pocket and dialed a number I hadn’t reached out to in two years. It rang and rang until the voicemail picked up. That was worse, if Douglas wasn’t picking up my call, something was definitely wrong.

I grabbed the tickets and looked down at Elisa.

“Go and pack a bag,” I said through clenched teeth.

“Are we going to mommy?” she asked in a small voice.

“Yeah,” I answered. “We’re going to get your mom back.”

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★彡 𝐀 𝐌𝐀𝐍 𝐒𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐍𝐄𝐃彡★

𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙪𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙮.

She stood at the threshold of a house that had become her home, and before her, everything lay shattered.

She thought she was ahead of the game, I mean, the psychotic woman who would do anything for the one she loved was bound to win… right?

Who did she love?

Was it me?

Was it her?

I didn’t care any longer.

In the game of cat and mouse, Mackenna Sterling thought she had won. She thought she had defeated me in her war against all odds.

I was the type of odd she didn’t see coming.

I was the collateral damage that raged an inferno in her life, after all, I learned from the best.

The tables are about to turn, my love.

I’m coming for you.

𝘎𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘴 𝘓𝘪𝘯𝘬: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/49122701-ttw-2

𝘙𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘋𝘢𝘵𝘦: 26 𝘑𝘜𝘕𝘌 2020

THE THIRD WHEEL – CHAPTER ONE

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Love is a dangerous word. 

As much as it has ended battles, it has started wars. 

As much as it has healed pain, it has caused agony. 

As much as it has ended hate, it has created loathing. 

I fell in love. A kind of love that I would live and die for. A kind of love that I would forsake who I was to obtain it. I was one of the believers until I wasn’t anymore. 

I trusted too easily, I fell too quickly, and I loved… oh, I loved too deeply. 
However, there was one thing I was excellent at…

Revenge.

Was I insane? Sure. Borderline psychopathic, when I didn’t take my meds. 

But it was okay…

They liked me that way. 

I smiled as I watched them hand in hand wondering what was going to happen next. 

They think it’s over. 

I laughed.

They think there’s a sense of remorse within me.

I laughed harder. 

Game on.

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You’ve got my attention

The club pulsed with a beat that vibrated through my jumpsuit clad body. I regretted my decision to wear it that night. It was velvet and clung to my impressive curves in a suffocating manner. I lifted my long, dark tresses off my neck and held it up in a knot against the back of my head. My best friend Naomi was way passed drunk and had her ass plastered to the crotch of some nameless dude.

That was what our Friday nights were like. Trolling. We were from the elite side of Manhattan. We were the Breakfast at Tiffany’s, lunch at the golf estate and partying with cocaine at the Masters’ mansion types. I was a cliché. I was good with that, too. It was necessary to my cause.

Being the Sterling heiress came with certain responsibilities, like entertaining the elite and showing up when they invited you out for drinks. Drinks which ended up in one-night stands and hoping none of your indiscretions landed on Page 6.

There was someone else with an agenda that night. There was someone else who wanted to be part of the elite, he had different reasons. However, he did not realize that his agenda was going to bring him right to me. Our lives changed that night. We were both playing a game that night. We were both trying to be seen by the other on purpose. And see him, I did.

Elias Porter commanded the room. He was tall, broad and tan. His black suit and shirt looked poured onto his large body. That sinful smirk that twisted his perfectly plump lips had my own lips parting. His hair was thick and messy, a dimple in each cheek and the best part? His eyes. Those fucking eyes I would never forget, no matter what.

Those dark eyes were on me. His one hand was curled around a glass while the other was in his pocket. He sucked in his bottom lip as he took me in. I almost swayed toward his hypnotic pull. Like he was the charmer, and I was the snake. I was a snake. A snake with the type of poison that would creep through his mind, heart and blood like a vine. A snake whose bite had no cure.

He was not aware that I already knew who he was. In fact, I was pretty sure he believed that tonight was the first night we would meet. I smiled slowly and raised a brow at him. His lips parted and as soon as I held his focus, I turned my back on him.

“Girrrrl, you need to be on the dancefloor, right now!” Naomi slurred. Her dark brown skin had a sheen of sweat while her sequined dressed stuck to her sinful body.

“I’m not drunk enough,” I chuckled, removing my Vape Pen from my purse and inhaling the cotton-candy flavored smoke. “I’ll be there in a bit.”

She shrugged her shoulders and disappeared into the crowd. Naomi and I were friends out of necessity. She had connections that I needed without having to use my name and she needed my name to make other connections. I watched her latch onto the same guy again. It was quite poetic how she gravitated to the same man. The man that would be my in with Elias.

The club we were in was owned by the Masters’; Grant had inherited a trust fund on his twenty-sixth birthday, and this was what he decided to do with it. It wasn’t all that bad considering the things he had going on in the basement of the club. Of course, he was a devious motherfucker. It ran in his family blood. They were shrewd, cunning and a little tilted.

Speaking of Grant, he appeared at my side just as I was about to head out.

“Mackenna,” he greeted.

Grant was dark-haired, blue-eyed and a gorgeous piece of rugged handsomeness. If that was what you were into. His knowing gaze traced my features. He knew my games, and he played them well with me. He was dressed in a t-shirt with a giant middle finger on it and jeans that cost more than some drinks at the bar. His messy hair made messier as he ran his hands through it.

“Grant,” I raised a brow. “Do you mind? I want to get some air.”

“You can in a bit,” he stared right back at me. “What are you up to?”

I frowned. “Going outside to get air, duh.”

“I saw your eye on Porter,” he stated.

“He’s a looker,” I shrugged and made a move to leave.

He caught my arm and gripped it hard. “Whatever you’re up to, I will find out.”

“That’s fine,” I smiled slowly. “Give my love to your parents.”

I stalked along the sidelines heading to the back, ignoring the stares and the catcalls from random drunk men and women. My sole focus was to breathe. I had a rough couple of days. I had stopped fighting the demons in my head when I was a child, it was probably why I needed the quiet. They needed to speak. I thought back to Grant’s warning. It was weird how he always figured out when I was about to play a game.

Too bad he didn’t know that the game had already started. Years ago. It was a game that was going to change the course of nature.

The ice-cold January air sliced across my face as I stepped out into the snowy New York weather. It was a shock to my system. Almost as if I was in two different worlds. Where I felt hot and sticky inside, I now thanked my lucky stars that this velvet was thick.

I forwent my Vape Pen and instead pulled out a pack of smokes. I lit the cherry flavored cigarette and took a long hard drag. I laid my head against the brick wall and exhaled, pretending it was all my sins and troubles that were being released into the air.

It would take a lot more than that to overcome all the things I had done in my life.

“You disappeared on me,” a deep voice vibrated through my body.

I opened my eyes and slid them to the side and found the suit. Elias was gorgeous up close. The disheveled sandy brown hair had streaks of gold in them, his eyes were dark and piercing, and his body looked like something out of a romance novel. Maybe more like that guy from the porn flick I watched the night before.

“I had no idea I was around for you,” I said in a monotone. I took another drag of my cigarette and blew out the smoke faster this time. “Is there a reason you’re disturbing my peace?”

He looked taken aback. Obviously, he thought he held my attention earlier and was trying to use that to his advantage. Unfortunately, to hold someone’s attention, you had to pretend as if they did not have yours. It got them riled up. They saw a challenge and would not stop until they have won it.

“I saw you inside thought we had a moment in there,” he shrugged.

“Don’t flatter yourself, darling. You’re wearing a suit to a nightclub,” I laughed. “I was just trying to figure out what that was all about.”

He shrugged. “The suit works.”

“For?”

“Well, I stand out, in a club full of ripped jeans and baggy t-shirts, I’m the sophisticated one that has a woman looking twice,” he straightened his thin silver tie.

I was impressed with how unabashedly he said that. The glint in his eye told me that he had no care how it made him sound. There was a take me as I am, or I’ll find someone else quality to him.

I turned toward him. “Well, you have all of my attention, what will you do with it?”

“I would start by introducing myself,” he held out his hand. “Eli.”

I placed my hand in his and felt an immediate connection that almost scared but intrigued me. “Kenna.”

He stared at me for a few seconds while I sucked on the cancer stick. He knew who I was. There was no way he hadn’t come across me before. I was interested to see how he played this out though.

“That’s a bad habit you know,” he said lightly as he came to stand opposite me, mimicking my stance by leaning against the opposite brick wall.

“So I’ve heard,” I chuckled and sucked harder on the cigarette. “We all have a vice.”

“Where are you from, Kenna?” he asked as he loosened his tie.

“Upper East Side,” I shrugged, stubbing out the cigarette. “You?”

“Same,” he frowned. “How is it that we haven’t met before?”

I raised a brow. “I have no idea. What is it that you do?”

“I’m an investment banker, junior for now,” he said with confidence. “What are you into?”

“I’m a software engineer.”

He raised his brows in astonishment. I got that a lot. No one believed a spoiled rich bitch like me could actually have some sense of intelligence, let alone being able to code and decode programs. Of course, Eli wouldn’t let on that he knew the extent of me being rich. His perfect portrayal of intrigue and lust gripped me by the throat. I wouldn’t even mention my ability to create gadgets. Which reminded me, I needed to check in on my latest attempt at creating my own spy cam.

“Are you passionate about that?” he asked, genuinely interested. I would look back at this day in the future and wonder, if only he was just a man, and I was just a woman, this meeting would signal the start of a romance. This here? This was a start of a war.

“Nah,” I shook my head. “I’m actually a photography buff. If there was a choice, I would choose that.”

Elias nodded slowly. “I get it. I’ve loved the idea of working on Wall Street since I was a teenager and saw the way these men in suits all held the power. It lit a fire inside me.”

I smiled, enjoying the passion in his voice. His eyes lit up and the smile that twisted those perfect lips made him all the more attractive. I walked away from my end towards him putting an extra sway to my hips. He stood up straighter as I approached him. I stopped only when the front of my body was pressed against the front of his. I had to look up at him, he was at least a foot taller than me.

“I think we’ve chatted enough for the night; don’t you think?” I asked him on a breathy voice.

Elias lowered his nose to my hair and inhaled deeply. “I think you’re right.”

I raised my face and touched my lips to his. He responded by capturing mine and taking charge of them. He kissed me deeply. His tongue dueled with mine. I was right that this was a beginning of a war. We were fighting a war. A war of attraction. Lust burned and pooled between my legs as his large hand traveled down my back and gripped my ass. I ground against him, well aware that my panties were now soaked and there was no way that I could take off this jumpsuit unless he was taking me back to his place or his car.

His soft lips were a contrast to the scrape of his teeth along my bottom lip and the fierce way in which he grabbed my flesh. It was as if he wanted to devour me and destroy me all at one. If one kiss ignited such a feeling between us, sex would be explosive.

I moaned deep in my throat. I wanted him. Now.

“HEY!”

The shout of a random bouncer sprung us both apart. We glanced at the tall stocky man. “None of that here!” he pointed up, and we belatedly noticed the cameras. After a few more warnings, the bouncer headed back inside.

Spying the camera, I knew I had to hack into it later and download the footage.

We both laughed uncomfortably. Elias ran his thumb along my bottom lip. “Wanna go back in?”

I shrugged. “Looks like we’d have to.”

I felt uncomfortable as I walked because of the arousal that made my thighs sticky when they rubbed together. I hated being so worked up with no release in sight. We made it back into the club. The night wore on with us grinding against each other on the dancefloor. We drank like fish and made out sloppily in dark corners.

Elias held my attention all night, which meant that as soon as he had confirmation of who I was, I knew that too.

***

Elias

He leaned against the bar and watched her as she swayed her body seductively on the dancefloor. He knew it was for his benefit. After all, up until they were faced with each other outside the club, she wasn’t on the dancefloor. She wanted his attention and just like how he knew he had hers, she had his.

“The Sterling Princess, huh?” Grant Masters clapped him on the shoulder.

Eli frowned and looked at him. “What do you mean?”

“I thought you were pursuing her because you knew who she was,” Grant raised a brow.

Grant Masters was a rich bastard that owned almost half of the Upper East Side while the Sterling family owned almost all of New York. Sterling and Masters, the biggest names in the city. Eli had wanted an in with the Sterling family for years now, it was always part of his plan. The fact that the heiress herself happened to be at the same club and all over his dick, that was a bonus.

“I actually did not know that was her,” he lied with a grin. “Now that I do, she just became interesting.”

“I’d watch out if I were you,” Grant warned.

“I’m not afraid of Munro or Douglas for that matter,” he waved his hand in the air.

“Wasn’t talking about her brother or her father,” he chuckled, his dark eyes held a tinge of amusement. “I’m talking about Mackenna herself.”

Eli rolled his eyes. How bad could a woman be? He glanced at the dancefloor one more time to look at her only to find that she was no longer there. He straightened his stance and tried to see over the gyrating bodies and crowded corners. She was gone.

He took a lap around the club with no sign of her. She was an enigma. A beauty. A magician.

He found her friend, Naomi, an African American beauty with skin like caramel who was grinding up on his friend Evan. “Hey, have you seen Kenna anywhere?”

Naomi looked up drunkenly. “She left.”

Eli felt disappointed, and he clenched his jaw. He wanted to get to know her more. Now that he knew exactly who she was, he wanted to find his way into her heart and squeeze it. He wanted to be the person that she brought home in front of Munro and his wife. He wanted the Sterling heir to feel him weasel his way into their lives and destroy them all.

Like they destroyed him.

Eli sighed, got into his Mercedes and zipped into the city to reach his apartment. Hennessey was fast asleep when he stepped inside. It was three in the morning, he wasn’t supposed to be out this late, but Kenna was all he thought about that entire night. He walked towards his roommate’s room and watched as she lay there beautifully.

Her thick dark hair fanned out on the pillow, her large eyes closed in sleep and her pouty lips parted as she dreamed. He trailed his finger along her cheek. She was a reprieve from all the bad things he had to do. She was the uncomplicated beauty that held his attention while the woman he really wanted paraded around with another man.

Eli walked upstairs and into his bedroom, he stripped off the suit and stepped into the hot shower. He reflected on the day before. He tried and failed at landing a job at Sterling. It was almost as if Munro remembered him. Logically, Eli knew there was no way. He was just a punk that faced off with Munro five years earlier.

His thoughts briefly traveled to Kenna. Her thick body draped in a skintight body suit that tempted him from across the dancefloor. He had an idea that Mackenna Sterling was going to be at the club, but he had no idea what she looked like. The Sterling family were always front and center in the news but never the princess. She was always the secret that remained hidden.

Eli laid his head against the tiles of the bathroom and stared aimlessly into the water. The hot water raised the steam in the room, and it was almost as if Mackenna stood there in the mist, watching him. His lips parted, his breathing increased, and his hand reached for his cock.

He stroked his hard length, biting his teeth so that he didn’t let out the guttural groan that begged to be let past his lips. Her eyes, so wide and blue, would stare up at him while she was on her knees. Those thick plush lips would wrap around his cock and frame it perfectly. Her hot tongue which he was lucky enough to taste, would lap up every drop he released into her.

He couldn’t take it anymore and came in strings across the tiles, the water washed away his sins before he could contemplate it.

Wrapping a towel across his waist, he walked into his bedroom, ignoring the need to go downstairs into Hennessey’s room, he walked straight into his. His phone vibrated around his nightstand and he noticed Evan’s name flash across the screen.

He answered. “What’s up?”

“Munro Sterling is dead.”

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