I don’t know you, and maybe you don’t know me. I will tell you this though:
I know you feel alone even in a crowd of people.
I know that sometimes even when you have a horde of loved ones ready to listen or ready to help, you still feel helpless.
I know that sometimes despite the fact that you have more than what others do, you still want more.
I know that even though you won’t admit it out loud, you envy those around you. You want what they have.
I know that sometimes even though you have travelled the world, coming home seems to be the only thing that makes sense, even when the house is empty.
I know that you hate the shell they see. I know you want someone to see past all that. You want someone who is going to look behind the physical appearance and the lavish lifestyle. You want genuine people. Continue reading →
Circumstances and experiences can change you drastically. It doesn’t matter how many clichés you follow, it doesn’t matter how many catchy quotes you use to lie to those around you, it doesn’t even matter whether you physically stop yourself from feeling every little thing–at the end of a long day when you sit down with just your thoughts to surround you–the reality grabs hold of you in a vise grip.
Life is hard. It is so fucking hard that sometimes you don’t really understand which way is up and which way is down. There really isn’t anything wrong with having that feeling, it just means that somewhere and somehow, things are going exactly as they should be.
Nothing worth having comes easy in life and all that.
Sure, there’s that handful. That handful that have their lives mapped out for them. That handful that think they are truly living by never moving off of their path. Those people that knew from the beginning where they want to head and how they want it to turn out. Continue reading →
“There is a difference,” she whispered in the dark. “There is a difference between those that are lost and those that wander.”
“What is the difference?” he asks, wrapping her up in a dark embrace.
“Not all those who wander are lost,” she says remembering a quote she heard from a long time ago.
“What do you consider yourself?” his darkness licks at her skin erotically.
“I am lost,” she moans.
“Why?” he purrs.
“Because I have always been left behind,” she looks out from her vantage point. She stands at the top of a cliff and far behind her, are all the people she filled her life with. “Today, I will leave them all behind.”Continue reading →
Life is pretty simple. You make a decision and there’s a 50/50 chance you’re either gonna get good results or flake out. Some of us fall under the latter category. Always flaking. Personally, when you’re all alone with no one to witness your internal downfall, you start to focus on all the bad things that have happened to you since day one. You start to believe that it is you.
What am I on about? Honestly, I don’t even know. There’s no method to madness and all of that. Continue reading →